Hi!  I’m Alyssa and welcome to my creative little space.  Come back often to find a good story; I always have one!

 

So now you are wondering… Why Peanut Butter AND Jungle Gyms?  What do they have to do with each other or even you?

Let me tell you a story!

There are many reasons that I’ve wanted to write a blog, but I’m now ready to share my story and hopefully help someone along the way.

Peanut Butter

I LOVE peanut butter.  Like would only each peanut butter for the rest of my life LOVE.  It hasn’t always been that way though.

I’m a daughter, friend, sister, aunt, dog mom, runner, teacher, and PERFECTIONIST.  Since I can remember I had pretty good control over my life.  I studied hard- received good grades.  Worked my butt off during dance team- Squad Leader. I had goals and I achieved them.  Then came college.  Real life was coming closer and closer and I had less and less control.  Life was changing and I so desperately needed to hold on to what I knew.  School, relationships, life was spirally beyond my control so I took control in what I thought was the best way possible; restricting.  My body told me one thing and my mind told me to do the opposite.

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I saw GREAT control.  I was winning at control.  No one else was as skinny as me and no one else had the will power that I did.

This was terrifying to others.  Thank God people cared about me when I wasn’t so easy to care for.  I believed they were trying to control me.  How did I handle this?  MORE CONTROL!  Less eating and more exercise!

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I had many fears in life.  What if I don’t achieve my goals of becoming a teacher?  What if I lose friends and no one likes me?  What if I allow this eating disorder take over my entire life? These fears translated into certain fear food.  Pasta, breads, steak, and most of all PEANUT BUTTER! I would nearly have a panic attack if peanut butter was involved in anything.  Why would I eat this fat?  It’s going to make to fat, INSTANTLY!

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After years of therapy, hospitalization, many tears and frustration I am becoming a strong person so I can be a better daughter, sister, aunt, friend, dog mom, runner, teacher, and most of all role model.

 As a runner and teacher who is constantly moving, peanut butter fuels more and adds some sweetness into my life.

Peanut butter to me is not only strength, but represents that when I went through an extremely sticky time in my life I was able to conquer my fears and even have CONTROL of those fears.

If I can you can too!  I’m here to listen, to complain, to rejoice, to cry, to laugh, to advise; I’ve been there and now there are happier times on the other side!

Are you wondering now why Jungle Gyms?

Come back and see!

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Remember, when life gets sticky, don’t forget to have fun!

Alyssa